Bad news for freedom and for trans people’s reproductive rights in Sweden :(

The issue of reproductive rights for trans people in Sweden has a pretty dirty history. Until 2013 sterilization was obligatory to be allowed to change legal gender. You weren’t even allowed to safe any sperm or eggs. Basically, the state wanted to make sure trans people could never reproduce. Between 1972 and 2013 approximately 800 transgender people were victims of this cruel law.

And now the authoritarian socialist state has made another decision which is a big blow to the reproductive rights of, among other groups, transgender people.

Yesterday the state made the decision to not make surrogacy legal. Because obviously the state is much more qualified to decide what you get to do with your own body than you are. *sarcasm*

As I’ve mentioned in a previous post I am currently in the process of saving eggs so this decision feels like a big defeat. If ever in the future I meet someone who can get pregnant and who wants to carry my child, the state forbids us from having a biological child together.

I really hope this law will be overturned in the future because I really don’t want to live in a country were the state has authority over people’s bodies and genetic material. The very notion that the state should have such a right is nothing less than sickening


How my transition is going

So I thought I’d use this blog also to document my transition and here’s how it’s been going so far.

For a little over a year now I have been going through an obligatory evaluation before I get to start the medical part of my transition. My latest appointment at the gender clinic was yesterday where I met the psychologist who will handle the third and final part of my evaluation. Previously I have met a doctor and a social worker who both said that as far as they can tell I am a good candidate to receive an official diagnosis of transsexualism, which is required to get approved for medical transition.

After the third part of my evaluation is done all three of them will have a meeting and, I hope, give me give me my diagnosis.

This will be a victory for me, but a slightly bittersweet one. While it will mean that I will finally get the treatment I need, transsexualism is classified here in Sweden as a serious mental illness and the state will have thereby labeled me for life as a deeply deranged individual. But what choice do I have if I want to get the medical treatment I need?

Anyway, from want I’ve been told I can expect to start testosterone sometimes in the beginning of this summer. Shortly after I will get to have my top surgery. My hope is to both be on T and have my mastectomy done before fall.

I am also in the process of having some of my eggs freezed and I will update on it as well as my transition in general.

Feel free to follow me on my adventures towards becoming my true self. If you have any question about this whole transition process, feel free to ask and I will answer after the best of my ability 🙂

So when is the first ebook coming out?

As many of you may know I am currently working on a queer-themed fantasy series which will be published in three parts. You may wonder when the first part will be published and the answer is: in about two month.

I decided that I want each part to be at least 100 hundred pages long and I just finished writing the first 50 pages. As I write one page a day, I expect to be done in about fifty days. After that I will have some proofreading to do along with some other preparations so you can expect the first ebook to be published sometimes in the beginning of April.

I haven’t decided the price yet but I think it will be between one to two dollars per ebook.

If I keep the same writing pace I could be done with the complete trilogy before the end of 2016. After that I have tons of ideas for more fantasy and sci-fi fiction, most of which will be LGBTQ-themed.

If you want to support my writing and in the same time get an exclusive first look at an excerpt from my book, you can become my patron through Patreon for as little as 1 dollar per month.

I appreciate all support and I will do my very best to bring you quality sci-fi and fantasy!

The rewarding struggle of staying aware

Earlier this week I started an experiment: trying as much as I could to stay mentally awake and undistracted by the constant flow of useless information surrounding us in this day and age.

The purpose of this was to try being more mindful and present and thereby living life more fully. Now, I have only done this for a couple of days but here is what I found: it was both more difficult and much less stressful than I expected.

I know that sounds like it doesn’t make any sense. How can something be both more difficult AND less stressful? Well, let me explain:

Staying aware requires the practice of frequently bringing back ones awareness to the present when it becomes distracted by unimportant things. This takes an effort but I have found that it is an effort that is much less stressful than being constantly unaware, missing important moments of living and then realizing that you did so.

In other words: the minor struggle of staying mindful and aware is nothing compared to the rewards it gives.

How could living life to the fullest possibly be a bigger sacrifice than missing it as it goes by?

Stealing back the time – An experiment

Last night I realized something major: I have a big time thief in my life who is kind of screwing things up for me. That thief is information.
Now, I know that it sounds like I’m saying information is a bad thing. Which I don’t think at all. Information is often very important and valuable but the problem is that we are living in an age where we are constantly bombarded with tones of useless information which distracts us from the important things.
For example: last night I spent about three to three and a half hour on my computer. My plan was to work on my book but in all this time I wrote only about half a page and spent most of the time looking at things that in retrospect I had absolutely no use for.
I mean, what use to me is knowing that my friend’s cousin’s wife has baked cookies and posted it on Facebook or that some online test has determined that my spirit animal is a porcupine? Wouldn’t the embarrassing among of time I spent mindlessly gathering this information had been better spent actually working on my book or socializing in real life with friends and family?
I’ve known for a while now that I have this problem. But before I did the math I didn’t realize how much of my life I’m waisting on this bad habit. But now I have and I thinks it’s honestly kind of sad.
So, I’ve decided to do a little experiment. From now on I will completely avoid distracting and pointless information and instead focus on being fully awake in every moment of my life. My time is mine and I’m stealing it back!

Let’s see what happens and I will post an update on this experiment in the end of the week 🙂